Want to Recover From Porn Addiction? Discover the Power of Habit Formation!!

If you want to recover from your porn addiction, you will need to discover the power of habit formation!

Discovering and developing new habits are central to your freedom!

Why?

Many reasons, but one is that the porn habit you are now starving is going to get hungry.

When the addiction or compulsion gets hungry, it’s going to want you to feed it – as you have done so many times in the past.  That’s why the closer you are to your addiction, the more fiercely you have to fight against it!

I am not talking about white-knuckle fighting. Instead, the intentional, yet determined fight that discovers and develops positive habits that will begin (over time) to replace the old ones!

Habit Formation and Freedom

My recovery road is bumper-to-bumper habit formation.  As I review the last two decades of recovery, I see many habits that have come and gone (yes, they can be seasonal) and many more that have continued to serve me to this day.

In this post, I am going to share a few of my personal favorites.

I am also going to recommend some excellent resources.

I will then invite you to share yours with me.

In the early days of my recovery, the battle was, at times, debilitating.

If not for the following five habits, I am not sure where I’d be today, but I know I wouldn’t be here!

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Social Media: You Child is Spending NINE Hours A Day On it!

Social Media: You Child is Spending NINE Hours a Day On It!

Social media apps are saturated with porn.  Porn is not, however, the only problem.  The problems associated with social media, particularly among the generation raised with unfettered access to social media, range from lack of trust to a loss of hope.

Note the lament of a teenager raised in the digital age.  While her voice is her own, it’s one familiar to and representative of so many more:

“I have terrible trust issues.  Ever since middle school and everybody got their phones.  I don’t feel like I can trust anyone.” ~Carrie, 15 year-old teen from Boca Raton, FL.

The book where I found this quote is called, American Girls: Social Media and the Secret Lives of Teenagers, by Nancy Jo Sales.  Carrie, and the host of teenage girls studied in this groundbreaking book, goes on to describe the world of Finstas.

A Hidden World Within the App

Finstas are fake Instagram accounts that middle school aged and younger children create to keep them hidden from their parents.

Do you know if your child has a Finsta?

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A Father’s Confession: How Instagram Made Me Feel Like a Fool

A Father’s Confession: How Instagram Made Me Feel Like a Fool

Warning: Explicit Content Ahead!  The content of this post deals directly with pornography and the immediate access our children have to it through social media apps.  As such, the language and specific wording is more explicit than many of my posts.

I believe, firmly, this is a message that must be voiced, heard, and shared.   I do, however, recognize that many may find it offensive.  It’s not my intent to offend, but to inform.  I plan on writing a series of posts addressing issues relating to social media apps in the coming weeks and months.  Please, feel free to contact me if you have questions or concerns, or simply need help.  You can reach me at bizgainey@gmail.com or biz@menagainstporn.org.


I blew it, I confess.

I’ve never truly monitored my children’s Instagram accounts the way they ought to be monitored.

Why?

Because the social media app comes with a “T” rating, which means – ostensibly – that it’s a #Pornfree app.

However, this couldn’t be further from the truth.

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Recognizing Triggers and Traps in Overcoming Porn Addiction, Part 1

I struggled with porn addiction for years before I realized that certain moments, thoughts, people, or places were triggers.  These triggers, when encountered, would ignite my desire and drive my decision-making process.†

After years of encountering them – and failing in that moment – I learned to recognize them and be on guard against them.  I’ve also learned that you can survive these triggers – even thrive in the midst of them, with a few steps and/or strategies.

A couple of the triggers and traps I’ve noticed through the years are:

  1. Seasons of life that are particularly demanding and/or taxing.  I call this trap, The Trying Season.
  2. Transitions in life such as a new place of work or a new move.  I call this trigger, The Teasing Season.
  3. Moments or days after I have expended a large amount of emotional energy on a task or project.  I call this trigger, The Tempting Situation.
  4. There is a fouth trigger.  This one is a combination of the previous three and is, as such, particularly challenging.  I call this trigger, The Trap Day.

Any of the moments described above are potential triggers that can trick one into believing porn is a necessary escape.

I am not sure what your triggers and traps are, but I know you have them.  So, I am going present four areas of potential triggers and traps, hoping to awaken you to and keep you aware of your own.

In my own journey, awareness of these triggers and traps has provided firm footing on which to stand and has enabled me to live a robust and wonderfully healthy post-porn addiction life!

Triggers and Traps

  1. The Trying Season. The American Psychological Association reports that nearly 70% of us believe stress has an impact on our physical well-being.  I wonder if we realize the impact of stress on our mental and emotional health?  While stress is the norm for many, highly stressful seasons of life are the experience of every one of us.  I am posting this series at this time – during the upcoming Holiday season – because for many – if not most – the Holidays are extremely stressful.  As such, every holiday season poses, for one addicted to or struggling with porn, a potential trigger or trap!

Consider two dominant areas of life experience:

  1. The relational ties we make in life.
  2. The work or education environment in which we live. This is the area of life that likely occupies most of your time.  For those in a career, it means a job.  For those who are students it means school work, life and all the activities that come with being a student in your typical academic setting.

In both areas, relationships and work, formation and deformation are happening all the time.  For example: when you work hard and receive a promotion or pay raise, you experience formation.  Your energies are rewarded and recognized by your colleagues, which gives you a sense of pride and accomplishment.  The experience of pride and accomplishment help form our sense of personhood, plac’dness, and purpose in our world.    In moments like these something sacred is at work.

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In such moments, we experience joy and fulfillment.  While these are beautiful moments that bring hope, they are also accompanied by subtle but certain stressors.  Intuitively, we begin to entertain thoughts like these:

Wow, what is this going to do for my career in the long run?  More success, more money, more stuff, more hours at work?

What’s my spouse going to think about this? 

How will this impact my relationship with my colleagues?

Even in moments of joy and celebration, stress begins to build.  Most of the stress is, of course, self-inflicted, but that’s not the point.  The point is that stress begins to build during moments we would not expect it to build.  If we don’t awaken to this reality, it will grow over time and become the dominate narrative from which we live.  Soon, we are in the midst of a Trying Season and we aren’t quite sure how we even got there.

As stress builds, anxiety increases.

As anxiety increases, frustration takes hold.

As frustration takes hold, conflict – both internal and external – grows.

As conflict grows, stress becomes the norm.

When stress becomes the norm, we sense a growing need to escape reality and relieve the tension.  When locked inside of a Trying Season, one easily falls prey to porn’s opportunistic pull.  Once in porn’s grasp, one will eventually act out, if support mechanisms, reliable strategies and relationships, are not in place.

It happens quickly: we click that web page that offers total satisfaction with very little investment.  But it leads to a dark place.

First it’s a soft-core sight.  Next we find ourselves hunting websites like Backpage, in the hopes of finding that caring companion who will, for just a small amount of our hard-earned money, ease away the pain, if only for a while.

Some are tempted stroll into that massage parlor that  offers more than back rubs.  Simply seeking to receive solace that our stressed-out-lives fail to provide.

You get the picture.  Porn’s power is weaponized in the midst of Trying Seasons and stressful realities.

For any who have struggled with porn, we know that this behavior eventually leads to shame and guilt, only adding to the stress we were trying to relieve.  In the space of such self-created tension, we begin to lash out at those we love and they who love us.

First we lash out – internally – at ourselves, then take it out on our spouse, then we randomly and carelessly yell and scream at the kids.  Finally, we retreat into an isolated island of self-loath and despair, wondering if we will ever be free.  Hoping, really, that we would one day be able to at least put up a fight.  Indeed, if we are not careful the Trying Season will lead to moments of self-induced, relationship-crushing pain.

Assess, Own, Ask, Alter

Take hope.  This need not be the case.  There are health-creating steps we can take before running to porn and compounding our stress:

  1. Awaken to and become aware of internal stressors.  I do this is by pausing a few times a day to gauge my emotional well-being.  It’s helpful for me to identify the emotions stirring within my soul.  I have learned to asks myself questions like, “Am I angry?” Or,  “Am I sad?” or  “Am I nervous?” Or,  “Am I concerned,” etc.?  Such questions help me begin to search for the root cause of my emotional unrest.  Once I get a sense of my emotional well being, the next step to accept responsibility for how I got where I am.
  2. Accept responsibility for my emotions. It’s easy for me to blame others for my feelings.  This rarely helps.  If I can accept responsibility for my emotions, then I can take positive steps to empower myself and direct my emotions back toward health. Blaming others, or blame-shifting, leads to self-preservation.  Self-preservation leads to isolation.  Isolation leads to acting-out.  Acting out leads to shame, guilt, despair.  It’s a slippery slope.  Owning my junk – as painful as that may be – is the pathway back toward help and wholeness.  Of course, this is difficult to do on my own, so I must have a trusted friend I can call at a moments notice!
  3. Ask a friend for help and/or counsel. The journey out of addiction is not a journey you can take alone.  Reach out to a trusted friend, spouse, brother, sister, counselor, pastor, mentor, or coach.  I remember the first time I confessed my problem to a friend.  The moment occurred over twenty years ago.  I remember it as if it were yesterday.  My heart was pounding so hard that I thought it was going to leap out of my chest.  My palms were clammy, my brow was beaded with sweat.  My head, quite literally, ached at the thought of sharing this traumatizing addiction with a friend. Looking back now I see how utterly crucial that moment was.  I encourage you – find a friend with whom you can share your pain!  Then, the next step is one that begins to offer hope!
  4. Alter the trajectory of your thought life. This is crucial.  You simply have to ‘get out of your head.’  That ongoing conversation of how everyone is against you is as unhelpful as it is untrue.  Once you nurture and cultivate a toxic thought-life, you are setting yourself up for addictive behavior.  Begin to speak truth and spend time with those who will speak truth to and with you!  Each of the previous steps strategically builds toward this one step.  As you “Assess, Own, and Ask,” you then get to a place where you can meaningfully Alter your behavior and thought patterns.

We experience life-giving and life-taking moments throughout all of our lives. That’s why being aware of and awake to The Trying Season is critical, if you are going to break free from porn’s pull.  If you need help, check out the links at the bottom of this post.

I will, in following posts, reflect on three other realities that porn seeks to exploit and ways I have learned to live porn-free in their midst.

They are:

  1. The Teasing Sensation.
  2. The Tempting Situations.
  3. The Trap Day.

Disrupting To Renew!

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†This series was originally written for and published on Men Against Porn‘s web site.  All content is the intellectual property of the author.

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Porn: Three Ways to Keep that “Gift” in it’s Box!!

This time of year – the Thanksgiving through mid-January holiday season (because the college bowl season has become its own holiday) –  is a particularly vibrant season for many of us.

Extended holiday seasons provide space to celebrate life and the loved ones with whom we live.  They are dotted with parties, engagements, gift – giving, year-end bonuses, festive feasts, etc.

Christmas VacationWhile Holidays can offer joy and celebration, they also produce emotions ranging from anxiety and anger to stress and depression.  Many of these negative emotions are kept at bay for much of the year.  The holiday season, though, knows no limits when it comes to exposing and exploiting that which we pretend doesn’t exist.  I am not sure why this is so, but it’s clearly the case.

Just grab a local law enforcement official.  They will tell you the crime rate skyrockets during this time of year.  A psychiatrist may likely tell you that depression and anxiety are notably felt and compounded during this festive season of celebration.  I bet our doctors, pharmacists and morticians – yes morticians – notice a frenetic increase in business during this time of year as well.

This reality – that our holidays, though meaningful – expose and exploit the worst and most fear filled parts of our soul – poses a problem for porn (or any) addicts.

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